i’ve been out trying to get a regular office job again. i like the freedom of freelancing, but i miss working in a team environment. i like bouncing ideas off of other people i guess. i just don’t get this with freelancing.
i’ve been out on a couple of interviews and so far i’ve been shot down in every single one. i think a lot of this has to do with how i come off in interviews. I spent 8 years at the same company so i haven’t really been “out there” in quite a while. it’s bad when it’s a head-to-head interview, but put me in a panel interview and i just loose it. i’m overwhelmed. totally out of my element. scared. yes scared. i feel like i’m on an operating table and having an autopsy performed on me while i’m still wide awake.
i wish someone would take a chance on me. give me a trial run. let me get in and show you what i can do.
yes, this is a “woe is me” post, but i don’t know where else to get it off my chest.
i WANT to work. i NEED to work.
just praying someone will give me the chance to prove myself.
in closing, tomorrow i’ll have a new post (more AJAX and maybe some straight up JavaScript) or two that won’t be full of self-loathing. i promise.